Back in October last year, I had a most interesting week. Consisting of meeting a new friend, two hook-ups, finding myself on a ‘date’ that I didn’t know about and a chance encounter that would turn out to change the course of my life for the following year. This was a week that will be remembered for a very long time, and a year that will have a lasting impact on me as a person.
I am reminded of an episode of How I Met Your Mother, where the lead character talks about the culmination of small events, seemingly insignificant or routine. It is the small events that lead us to a single point where we find ourselves on the precipice of significant change.
This change saw me in a relationship, one that I clearly didn’t want and stated so right from the start. It was a relationship that would bring out traits within me that I am not proud of, one that would destroy my self confidence as a sexual being and one that would ultimately end up causing me a great deal of pain.
This time, it was different. The hurt was different. Worse. I found myself questioning the inner strength that I always believed to hold within.
It would be so easy to slip back into past habits of swearing off relationships and making a firm choice to be single. For good. Only sticking to it this time. Only I know that being single for ever isn’t a fate that I want for me. I want to find love again, and to be loved in return. Equally.
I have much to say about the past year of my life. Stories that are both good and bad. I hope that the journey you take with me in the coming posts (all back dated in the interests of timelines and continuity) is one that, at the very least, will interest you enough to keep reading.
This multi part story begins with ‘Two dates, one night‘.
An introduction to Jude in ‘Coffee? Sure, or…‘.
An important moment occurred in ‘a not so brief moment‘.
A mark was left in ‘concealer, foundation, toothpaste‘.
A chance meeting while out with friends in ‘I thought we were on a date, but…‘
Final thoughts in ‘Culmination‘
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